Blog about a life style, an adventure, meetings and 2 donkey's view of a walk from North America to Chili.
Sunday, December 9, 2012
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Pajamas
I refuse to wear pajamas when
sleeping with a woman
These words tend to explain the reason
why I'm leaving at the age of 61, nearly 62 the woman with whom I
have raised Agate & Adrien, our grown up children, a comfortable
country house I have rehabilitated this year, and my friends.
Life is a long journey that the Buddha
in each of us guides towards self knowledge. You don't have to think,
do, … to find yourself. The journey is inwards always regardless of
the exterior trappings. The only certainty is that you will end up
dead. That is the ultimate end of the journey for each of us. So who
wants to wear pajamas when sleeping with a woman? Or a Man?
I am exhausted from working on my
country home. It has radically changed in the last 9 months of work.
The garden is groomed, the house is now two possible apartments
sharing a common central heating, hot water, electricity and gas. All
is newly painted, the cat has a new double entry door through the
wall to keep the cold out and that gives directly into the kitchen
where he has his food, and both the new back door and the front door
have security latches with keys … not that this has ever been a
real concern, but is essential if the house is rented some day.
So why not stay in my nest and roost
while idling my time with sculpting delicious statues for the 9
pillars of the barrier between the house and the street? Why not
“just enjoy”, “create” … live daily with ease?
I went to the local bar yesterday to
treat my work helper to an after work drink and saw interesting
people wasting their life at the counter, drinking and hoping that
something WOULD happen. In fact I was the happening that evening and
served a round of drinks. Another reason probably for leaving in less
than 3 months now.
When you're painting, scraping,
building … you have a lot of time to think. You pay attention to
what you're doing but as in all manual work, this leaves lots of time
to let the thoughts of your life penetrate and invade your
consciousness. Just like walking or meditation I should say.
How fortunate I am to be able to do
exactly what I want and like each day, and have the budget to do it
with. That is truly the biggest challenge I have faced since I was 19
years old. Just like my son or daughter today, I get to 'choose' my
life. But with so much more confidence in myself. Life has given me,
or should I say I have struggled years to obtain, the assurance that
as incompetent as I may be, I have no fear of tomorrow's challenges.
I know I know NOTHING of what awaits me, that it WILL be difficult
beyond what I can imagine today, but I have FAITH in my ability to
minimize the risks, face the unknown as it happens and through it all
both survive and live with the feeling that LIFE IS GOOD.
This is the time for introspection
before launching on the journey. Like the athlete or the artist, the
time before the play is a time of emotions, feelings, … you have to
let go of your super ego criticizing your expressed desires, your ego
wanting to control everything and your projected image amongst all
who know you. Birth of a “new me” in the shell of the “old me”.
Along the way some accompany you that you did not expect and those
closest to you are hiding from you, protecting themselves from the
separation.
I struggle with that one. Am I the one
creating the separation ahead of time to be free to leave when the
time comes? Or is it them, particularly my wife who says nothing? I
refuse to attempt to imagine what she is feeling, resenting,
struggling with because then I would make all sorts of films for myself which
would only be mirrors of what I would be living if roles were reversed. I
only ask her, and those questions hit loudly a wall of silence.
Silence in the word, silence in the acts of daily life, silence in
the bed. After all, do I have the right to ask her to be other than
what she manifestly wants to be. I'm just sad to observe that it
comforts me in wanting to lead separate lives.
Well, almost 3000 pages of this blog
have been read, but I don't know how many by robots … probably most
of them … is this a long self meditation? …. Could be ….if
people are reading this they are leaving very few messages. Perhaps
You?
PS. I have decided that all my
possessions will be frozen into an estate should anything happen to
me and until my death has been confirmed. The reason for this is that
should I be kidnapped, no one will be able to pay any ransom based on
my properties, that I have stated this officially and my accounts are
separated from those of my family so that no one would expect
me to pay them back should they decide to pay something and I have to
be in France in person and “free” to be able to act on my own
estate. No mandate is possible.
This is both a safety issue and a
philosophical stance.
If some idiot in the world wants to try
to bargain me against money, I refuse to have my estate used to “save
my life”. Most likely it would only serve to give money to
kidnappers and I would not be safer or have any guarantees of getting
out of the situation. I'd rather all know, both kidnappers and
rescuers, that I have only what I can draw with a credit card from a
bank which makes kidnapping me useless. Besides, I have to die some
day, if I cannot convince my kidnappers then I would rather either be
considered “useless” or eventually even end the trip there.
By the way, this is NOT worrisome, just
one of the items that needs to be dealt with to prepare for the trip.
PSS. Tomorrow, today in a few minutes
is the birth day of Jean Marin, a friend whom I was raised with and
who took his own life … too soon. Our mothers used to put us in the
open drawers of a cupboard as a cradle when we were tiny. After a
weekend skying in the Alps for his 40th birthday, we both pro-created
daughters within a few days … .He could not compromise with
himself, thus with others. Too bad, we had great times together. He
missed out on being a father for his two children in their teens. I
miss him and will till I die no doubt. A good reason to want to
live.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Chez Martine (learning about donkeys)
Chez Martine
Martine is one of the first to believe
that Donkeys were on the “come back” after so many years of
neglect of this essential animal prior to the automobile. Choosing to
live on the family's gentleman farmer's estate over 40 years ago, she
has been a founder or co-founder of each of the main organizations in
France that address the breeding, training, and re-adaptation of the
donkey in our modern world either as an ecological farm work animal
(mostly for vegetables and specialty types of gardening including
work in hot houses) or as a leisure animal for the family.
I'll spare you the politics, only to
tell you that like in all associations, professional organizations
etc . It is difficult in our present world to grow a project with a
common goal that does not include a power struggle or a financial
gain. Despite efforts to focus on ideals, such as the well being of
the animals and their status, there are always people who see
associative organizations as a vehicule for their own self esteem,
financial gain and or power play.
The donkey is not like a horse. It does
not respond to power games, authority without reason, or simply brute
force. By nature donkeys are sedentary animals that establish a
territory, defend it if needed, organize their lives as a heard where
each individual takes care of the others while living quite an
independent life. A smart animal donkeys can be “educated” to do
many things, but only because you have convinced him that doing it
was a “good thing”. Those that want to dominate, force the animal
to do things that are not in his opinion safe or sensible … will
find the donkey to be stubborn and this to the point of exasperation.
But if you listen, observe and take the time to dialogue with the
animal, provided he has not been traumatized in a previous life, he
will respond and do incredible things to help you in whatever
endeavor you have.
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Here I want to say that people who have
donkeys as decorations in their yards, as a toy for their kids, and
who generally treat the donkey as a pet are in fact creating terrible
conditions of life for their animal. Bad treatment of this type is
common and over feeding, bad mannerisms and negligence should be
identified and dealt with to protect these good spirited and generous
animals.
As a sedentary animal the donkey needs
his own space where he is “free” to do as he likes. Then when you
want to teach him, work him, use him for a task, he needs to be taken
out of his SPACE and taught that when this occurs he is “working”
thus not free to do as he likes. Just like children in school, they
love to learn but need a framework of conditions to focus on the task
at hand. Also in the same sense, you need to respect the donkey's
perceptions of personal space. If you approach from the front and
extend your arm to him, for him this is an aggression, thus he is
likely to turn away or react negatively since you enter his buble of
comfort. Just like you when you meet someone, if you are too close or
that you allow yourself to touch them, most likely you will offend
the person. However if you enter like would another donkey on the
side, scratch them (not a pat which is an agression) and most
importantly talk to them, then they will not object to your presence
and eventually allow you to start work.
Donkeys consider you to be “part of
the heard” … once you have established contact. As such you need
to learn Donkey language and behaviour, most of it body language and
speech to let them know when you approve, disaprove of something or a
behaviour. A set of simple commands, creating a “reward” that is
a caress, an immediate (less than 3seconds) reaction to a “bad
move” etc … and NO “goodies” such as carots or apples which
in their metabolism works as if you gave your kid a “candy bar”.
You can give them something like that but not on a regular basis and
only occasionally.
So I have spent a couple of weeks
almost with these 7 donkeys at Martine's house and was able beyond
the excellent theory courses by Martine and her collegues each
specializing in “feet care”, equipment, and various activities
with donkeys (hiking, riding, pulling a cart or working the land), to
establish a functional relationship with each animal. Of course I
know I know “nothing” since each relationship is a special
investment with the need to “recognize” the spirit and will of
each other. But we did an interesting exercise which was to go to a
fair where they sell donkeys and horses and I learned how to
recognize a potential candidate for my journey. The feet need to be
well aligned, vertically when viewed from all directions, the hoof
not deformed which means manicured or used naturally correctly so
that the animal has not developped structural issues. The back on
young ones are not yet level, when you work an animal you want his
whole body to be sufficiently mature. I'll be looking for animals at
least 5 years old and not over 10 (maximum 15) years old. The teeth
slant is more pronounced on older animals and of course it is
essential to inspect the whole mouth as poor dental structure or over
use indicates futur problems. You need to choose a rather underfed
rather than a fat animal. Many more health issues with fat animals
both structurally as well as internally. Beware the “gloss” of
the coat is important to avoid animals with imballanced or parasited
digestive systems. Walking the animal, paying attention to his
behaviour … are all important preliminary steps to finding a work
companion. Then comes the critical issue, is there a personal contact
with the animal? Does he pay attention to you as soon as you meet? Do
you “feel” him and does he tolerate your presence? Without
letting the emotional enthousiasm overcome your analytical approach,
only animals that you determine you have a feeling for are worth
considering. Whenever possible, just like when you hire a person for
work, you should find a way to establish a trial period where you can
handle, work and become familiar with the animal. After all, you are
not buying a car, but a living creature that will interact with you
and make your life either miserable or full of joys. I feel ready to
try.
The week's program was conducted by
several experts, sometimes in team to allow more individual tutoring.
The experts knew their stuff, their years of practice allowed us to
ask a wide range of questions and each participant to focus on his
individual project:
- One day of overall knowledge about the animal, his history, his living habits, including anatomical and physiological knowledge.
- One day of work on the feet with cleaning, trimming, shoeing and other treatments including diagnostic of health issues and ways to treat them. Hands-on practice was quite interesting and every day we handled the feet prior to any work with the animals.
- One day on the material, the various contexts in which you can work the animals (farm work, pleasure rides and pack-saddle operations, the raising of donkeys to create mules …). Each halter type, saddle type, and equipment to pull was installed several times on the animals and examples of variants per culture or region of the world was discussed. The types of materials used, the ergonomy of the material to make it comfortable for the animals, the options and common errors were also covered.
- One day at the fair to practice identification of issues with animals, discuss with sellers and observe process followed by a few hours on the legal, administrative, and business considerations for those wishing to establish an activity with donkeys.
- The last day was devoted to the carriages and other work with donkeys. We were able to practice getting the animals ready, go through the process of getting animals used to a cart or other devices, handling the animals using voice and reigns, and of course took a ride.
During the courses, anecdotes, examples
and many stories were told to illustrate the dos and dont's of the
best practices. We visited several sites where people had developped
various activities. Tidbits such as learning why you mount a horse
from the left were shared (this was so that the saber would not
impeed climbing on the saddle.
Fortunately I was able to spend a
little time with Martine on site and thus was able to complete the
formal course work with extensive discussions on the specifics of my
proposed venture. Mostly this conforted me in my expectations that if
I have much to learn, none of it is out of my reach nor more
difficult than simply taking the time to adapt and develop good
practices.
Possibly, one change is that I might
after the first 6 months (basically the PCT) acquire a big donkey, a
mule or possibly even a mustang to ride as well as walk … we'll
see.
Did I mention the good food, the wines,
the “home life” feeling that enabled the 10 students to feel
comfortable, participate in daily life activities and learn from each
other. An important part of the training allowed students to be
focussed on learning while sharing life experiences.
Coordinates:
Martine Jouclas
L'Ânerie.
06 87 47 68 84
Centre
ânier de formation
Photos by Isabelle & Cathy (via PER)
Isabelle David
La ferme Bio de Vignaut
Produits bios de saison
Camping à la ferme
Visite
Table d'hote /Repas collectif
www.lafermedevignaut.e-monsite.com
Produits bios de saison
Camping à la ferme
Visite
Table d'hote /Repas collectif
www.lafermedevignaut.e-monsite.com
Thursday, August 23, 2012
I have been contacting associations and working on the route. As I tell my friends about this journey, they come up with stories, share their concerns and even send me pictures.
As part of the preparation, we had a family diner with my daughter Agate, son Adrien and Veronique my wife where I explained to all the planned route for the journey and most important that I was not leaving them without resources and would remain available in case of emergencies. I am planning to be regularly several months a year in France and share the family life I have helped to create. I also explained that I had committed to creating a home environment to raise the kids and that now that they are adults, each one needed to take his path in life. Agate cried and said I was abandoning them. These are times where each one needs to grow and assume his own life's course. It is part of my way of relating to others, put them in situations where they cannot just depend on me while knowing that I'm present and will always be there for them. I'm willing to help, be there when needed, but not serve as a crutch for the handicap of looking at your own life straight in the face. We are both ALL TOGETHER and TOTALLY alone in life.
Another fear was that I would leave Veronique without resources so I explained to them that Veronique was provided for and had her own resources to lead her life, another life than mine. It is difficult to explain that the family unit is not threatened while the life of each individual is taking different paths. Then came statements like "you might never come back" or " I don't see you coming back" ... to which I can only say that if it is possible, I'm not planning to die soon and that what I'm doing, if it seems 'adventurous', certainly is not more dangerous than crossing the street, it just is not a usual way of life within the social morays.
It is part of preparing such a journey to give time to those who are close to you to get used to the idea and progressively allow them to let go of their own fears. Individuals need different time frames to adjust to emotional, conceptual and physical changes in their environment. I'm sure that by the time I leave there will be several passages where emotions and fears will emerge and need soothing.
As for friends, I tell them to come and join me while on their vacations. It is a way to say that I am not leaving them, only living my life and inviting them to join this part of my life to pursue our friendship. They have to understand that friendship is also sharing experiences together.
When will you start thinking about joining the journey ???
As part of the preparation, we had a family diner with my daughter Agate, son Adrien and Veronique my wife where I explained to all the planned route for the journey and most important that I was not leaving them without resources and would remain available in case of emergencies. I am planning to be regularly several months a year in France and share the family life I have helped to create. I also explained that I had committed to creating a home environment to raise the kids and that now that they are adults, each one needed to take his path in life. Agate cried and said I was abandoning them. These are times where each one needs to grow and assume his own life's course. It is part of my way of relating to others, put them in situations where they cannot just depend on me while knowing that I'm present and will always be there for them. I'm willing to help, be there when needed, but not serve as a crutch for the handicap of looking at your own life straight in the face. We are both ALL TOGETHER and TOTALLY alone in life.
Another fear was that I would leave Veronique without resources so I explained to them that Veronique was provided for and had her own resources to lead her life, another life than mine. It is difficult to explain that the family unit is not threatened while the life of each individual is taking different paths. Then came statements like "you might never come back" or " I don't see you coming back" ... to which I can only say that if it is possible, I'm not planning to die soon and that what I'm doing, if it seems 'adventurous', certainly is not more dangerous than crossing the street, it just is not a usual way of life within the social morays.
It is part of preparing such a journey to give time to those who are close to you to get used to the idea and progressively allow them to let go of their own fears. Individuals need different time frames to adjust to emotional, conceptual and physical changes in their environment. I'm sure that by the time I leave there will be several passages where emotions and fears will emerge and need soothing.
As for friends, I tell them to come and join me while on their vacations. It is a way to say that I am not leaving them, only living my life and inviting them to join this part of my life to pursue our friendship. They have to understand that friendship is also sharing experiences together.
When will you start thinking about joining the journey ???
Friday, August 10, 2012
The journey
Long
Ears 2 Chile
The world is full of natural wonders
that we talk about and dream to see. There is a time in life when you
have to decide wether to keep these as dreams or actually LIVE the
singular experience that the Oceans, Mountains, and Nature in general
has to offer. The paths to awareness are many, this happens to be my
path … that I'd like to share with you.
Language source is English, but you can read in any language using at the bottom of the page the translator from GOOGLE. Not as good as the original, it allows you to follow ...
Language source is English, but you can read in any language using at the bottom of the page the translator from GOOGLE. Not as good as the original, it allows you to follow ...
The west coast of the Americas is a
land of dreams. Pionneer Europeans, natives or even migrants of all
times have recounted the tales of this land as a human experience
that are now in our common culture. It's history since the
conquistadors, the gold 49ers, the Mexican, latin american and
central american revolutions has largely focussed on the conquering
mentality of our western culture. It has often overlooked the
incredible beauty, natural wonders and inherent treasures of the land
where first nation cultures used to live in a balanced non
destructive harmony.
April 2013 two donkeys and I will begin
on the Pacific Crest Trail on a 2 year 9000+ miles journey to reach
Puerto Montt, the shipbuilder's paradise, starting point of another
trip by boat.
Our journey will begin on the Pacific
Crest Trail, this is a well documented 5 months long trail
practicable for horses throughout the states of Washington, Oregon
and California. It meanders throughout the remaining wilderness of
the west coast while retracing the historical steps of such legends
as John Muir. At the Mexican border one needs to reach Mexicali to
cross over and then dive east into the rocky mountains extension into
Mexico who's eastern slopes allow you to reach Mexico City and
further on to Guatemala, El Salvator, Nicaragua and Costa Rica.”'
Meandering through mountain passes and low lands towards the Panama
Canal we will have to go over uncharted terrain to find the right
route to reach the Columbia foothills and climb progressively the
Andes, crossing over to it's eastern side and it's villages in the
upper Amazone. Then the route is due south cutting through Equator
and Peru to once again rise over the mountains to stay on the western
side of the Andes throughout Chile.
This is NOT an expedition, not an
adventure (in the sense of those events organized on TV), not a
challenge or an attempt to prove anything … as if life was made to
struggle against something. NO, this is a means to experience a way
of life, a means of living in harmony with the land, meet it's
people, and all living creatures while personnally continuing to
grow. This journey will be documented in films and a “blog” (log
book with pictures) that will attempt to capture: the experience, the
encounters, the present state of the environment. Last year I did
this during a 4500 Km trip by canoe across Canada, see
www.mountains2montreal.ca.
Planned initially as a journey for a
couple as I have learned the importance of sharing daily human
experience when I spent 4 months alone in the Tahitian Islands in
2010; I will be starting off alone as my wife begins another life.
People will be invited to join on long or short periods based on
their ability to respond to the spirit of the journey. Walking an
average of 20km per day, there will be time to stop and stay with
people or in wilderness areas that compel one to spend a little time
to appreciate the environment. At times night walks, long days in the
deserts, and obligatory crossings of car designed environments will
require endurance and determination.
At 62 with extensive experience both in
the wilderness and achieving objectives, after a carreer as an IT
Director in major international firms, I both know that I know
nothing of what awaits me yet feel confident and secure that I'll be
in Puerto Montt in 2015. As my father would have said “beware of
what you want, you might get it”, and though we never know what
tomorrow has in store for you, I really want to do this trip and will
deal with health and local issues as I meet them. I know that YOU,
reading this, and all those I will meet on the way, will join me in
spirit, in person and/or help me because sharing our humanity is a
means of feeling good about ourselves.
I have always been a wanderer. As my
mother in law says “ Pascal would talk to a sitting dog”, meaning
I like to meet people, find that in the world there is a community of
people who think, feel, experience life as I do and like to share
essential parts of themselves with me even if tomorrow or in a few
days I move on … to another meeting. I like to teach skills I have,
make music, work on a garden or a building project … and most of
all share daily life with love.
I tend to take time to prepare a
journey acknowledging that age and limited ressources require that
you pay attention to details. I'm leaving with 2 donkeys who will
carry light loads. This will allow me to walk at a good pace and yet
have about one month of food autonomy. Water will be extra weight in
regions where it is scarce and needs to be rationned. Donkeys like
having company and having 2 will allow for more autonomy and security
in case someone twists an anckle, in case one Donkey has a foot
problem, etc … Donkeys are sturdy, sure footed and able to live on
the land in most environments which is not true of Mules or Horses.
Smaller animals, they tend to be easier to care for and are
remarkably intelligent contrary to traditional lore.
Expectations:
The journey will be a shared
experience. Shared with participants, shared by encounters, shared
through blog postings and film making, shared by those who will want
to participate in creative manners before, during and after the
journey.
Even before starting, just as for all
my journeys, I already know that this journey would not be possible
without the help of many at all phases of the journey. Hopefully like
for my previous journeys where I taught people how to make bread,
pizzas, chicken coops, gardens, … this journey will also be a means
of bringing to others, in a non commercial/financial relationship, life skills, awareness and important moments in
their lives. An example is the collection of berries, plants, etc and offering them in villages against whatever another person wishes to give me (even nothing is ok). This is the only way for me to consider life worthwhile.
The journey will find it's own shape
over the 2 to 3 years time frame with regular returns to see family and friends and manage to be present for all as well as deal with administrative stuff. Although basically I expect to
reach Puerto Montt in Chili, weather, encounters, health, and many
other factors will undoubtedly change my vision, shape the route and
give life to a particular trip that will BE LongEars2Chile and not
what I can imagine today. Life has always been for me the meeting
place between my desires, my ability to make things happen as I would
like them to happen and the opportunities, realities and encounters I
have made along the route. Who could have predicted meeting the
mother of my children at 38, a successful international career, crossing Canada in a canoe …
etc and now, much like Martin Luther King, I say “I have a dream”
… and let life find it's way to making my vision exist.
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